It sometimes feels like everyone is getting married and settling down. It seems like getting married is the big grown up step to take in life. Even though marriage isn't as highly regarded as it once was there are still plenty of people either marrying or doing the more modern equivalent and living with a partner. Living in sin as my Grandma says!
Sometimes I wonder about God's plan for me and question and push and generally stomp my feet and demand my own way like a fractious toddler! I would love a road sign or two just to show that I am on the right track as it is easy to feel like life is rushing on and on and I am standing still. I have to be careful as I know that, if I let it get hold, then these sinful thoughts will embed themselves into my mind. Negative influences can come in many forms. Some are so obvious and easy to avoid but others, the dangerous ones, are more subtle and insidious. The romance novels where the man and woman are so unhappy while single and gloriously happy once married and where the book ends with everyone neatly paired up. What do I want to give most influence from? A fluffy Christian romance novel or God's own word in the Bible?
I always assumed that I would get married. I wasn't one of those girls who dreamt about a big white dress or picked out flowers for the bridal bouquet but there was always this vague idea that marriage would happen. The older I get though the more I feel that marriage isn't God's plan for me. Of course, I can't be sure of this! I just don't feel dread imagining a future without marriage. There is a certain contentment from just trusting in God!
Marriage is a gift from God but so is singleness! Singleness sometimes has such negative ideas surrounding it. Mostly in the minds of other people! An older single must be desperate to get married, must be feeling left behind, and must be waiting to finally get on with their proper role. It hurts sometimes that people make little comments about waiting and being left on the shelf as though being single means that I am somehow deficient or lacking or not doing God's will. It is perfectly possible to a productive Christian without being married. If anything I have more time and energy to devote to God. Not just studying His Word but also putting this into action in my life.
Singleness can be a blessing whether it is a temporary situation or a permanent situation. God places us exactly where He wants us and we get the opportunity to grow and learn from the situation we find ourselves in. Well we do if we open our eyes and look around!
Some find it strange that I love all the home making tasks and yet may never have a family of my own. I get comments about it being pointless. As far as I know single people still eat, clean, have gardens, and have clothes that need mending! Learning a new skill is never pointless. I know that knitting is teaching me patience far faster than anything else!
God is using this season of my life to draw me closer to Him. To teach me to turn to Him first and to look to His will. Whether this season lasts a few years or the rest of my life there is joy, contentment, and peace to be found in trusting God completely.